Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Hello, I’m Unfinished Mom. Remember Me?

Have you ever been through a season of life when things were just out of whack?

If you’re a mom, you've been there before. Something happens, and the schedule gets off. Someone gets sick and it takes you a month to catch up. There are lots of reasons life gets out of whack - schedule changes, new milestones of life, new responsibilities – you know the list. The end result is that you just can't seem to find "normal".

That's pretty much where I've been the last few months. There isn't really a good reason for it. No one’s been sick. No births; no deaths. Our schedule hasn’t really changed. There’s just been a confluence of events that sucked up time and energy. (Before you wonder, if this is goodbye – no it’s not!)

And there’s been the introspective re-examination.

It started several months ago - I don't know exactly when – this funk that has seeped into the crevices of my thoughts. I knew life could be better. I knew I could manage our home life better. I needed to figure out how.

So, I questioned.

I questioned the many tasks in my life. I wondered if I was doing too much (Um, yeah, that's an affirmative – still haven’t figured out what to stop doing). I felt overwhelmed with all of what needed to be done. I got up in the morning with my head whirling. I thought, "If I could just stop the rest of the world, I could catch up!"  I told my husband, “I really need to step back and regroup.” But there wasn't time. There was more to do. And examining the calendar didn’t reveal additional time either.

So, that’s why I haven’t been around much over the last few months.

If you’ve visited in the last few months, and wondered where I’ve been, Thank You!  I appreciate your interest and encouragement. I’m still around. Sort of hiding out at home, re-examining my life, and trying to develop a new more Godly paradigm for who I am and what this blog will become. I have not figured it all out by any means, but the picture is becoming clearer.

That’s where I am…

How is 2010 shaping up for you? What have you been up to?


Angie @ Many Little Blessings said...

I have totally been like that lately. I spent 10 days away in May while my Grandma was dying and then stayed through her funeral, and I just feel like I've been out of whack since then. I have been doing a lot, but just feel like I just can't get my act together.

Hope things get better for you soon!

Sabrina said...

I understand that. I got into a funk once my husband deployed and barely blogged at all. Then he got home in April and we spent a lot of time together since we knew he'd only have about 6 weeks at home before he left for another 2 months. He left yesterday and now I'm back in my funk and still don't feel like blogging.

Glad to see you back though. I check your blog regularly.


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